dear future husband:

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Your eyes they tie me down so hard/ I’ll never learn to put up a guard/ So keep my love, my candle bright/ Learn me hard, oh learn me right

This ain’t no sham/ I am what I am/ I leave no time/ For a cynic’s mind

We will run and scream/ You will dance with me/ Fulfill our dreams and we’ll be free

We will be who we are/ And they’ll heal our scars/ Sadness will be far away

Do not let my fickle flesh go to waste/ As it keeps my heart and soul in its place/ And I will love with urgency but not with haste

there is a difference between loving with urgency and loving with haste. urgency suggests importance and forethought. haste suggests recklessness.  come find me with urgency but not with haste.

 

x leslie

honesty hour

Processed with VSCOcam with f3 preset Processed with VSCOcam with t1 presetalright, honesty hour. and i mean complete honesty.

the past two years have been such confusing years. i’ve had some of the highest points of my life, and also some of the toughest struggles.

high points:

– making wonderful covenants with the Lord in the temple

– figuring out my career (hopefully for the last time)

– making wonderful friends

low points:

– being single for over two years and having very few options (i can count the amount of dates i’ve been on in the past two years with one hand)

– plus, as of now all of my exes are in serious committed relationships (engaged/married)

– having some of the biggest spiritual struggles of my life and doubting answers that i received and was once so sure of

– increased anxiety and stress regarding my future

– some intense loneliness and nostalgia for school and my friends from there

part of the reason i haven’t blogged much in the past two years is because i felt like i don’t know anything.  i feel like if my past relationships haven’t worked, then something must be wrong with me. it’s crazy and untrue.  i mistook “realism” for “cynicism” especially when it comes to how i view myself.  but i’m done with that.  i also thought that i shouldn’t accept that i care a lot about finding love; romance shouldn’t be in the top of my priorities, but it is. i’m a romantic.

so, i’m back to blogging.  i’m back to being a “realistically-hopeful-romantic”.

be on the look-out for more “dear future husband” letters.

dear future husband:

on my computer, there is a file containing letters to future me reminding myself why none of my exes are right for me.  it’s a trick i picked up from how i met your mother to prevent any emotional or physical backsliding.  anyway, i can’t wait for when i can just delete those letters and replace them with a picture of us.

x leslie

love song

“use somebody” – kings of leon

I’ve been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see
Painting faces fill the places I can’t reach
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you and all you know and how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night while you live it up I’m off to sleep
Waging wars to shake the poet and the beat
I hope it’s gonna make you notice


Someone like me


I’m ready now

guest blogger: k & t

Leslie asked me to share my vast relationship knowledge with the blogging world.  I am engaged and going to be married in November, so clearly I am an expert.  No one really cares how T and I met so here’s the Reader’s Digest version:  girl’s family moves to London and she joins.  Girl meets boy in church.  Boy thinks girl is hot and asks her out.  Girl thinks boy is also hot and says yes.  Lots of awesome dates.  Time for girl to go home.  Many months of skype follow with a few visits.  Girl comes back for Thanksgiving.  Boy gives girl ring.  Boy and girl start visa process.  Many more months of skype.  Visa approved.  Boy to join girl in America soon.  Now you’re caught up.  

I think my number one piece of advice on relationships is this: sometimes relationships suck.  Whenever another person is involved and you can’t be completely selfish there are going to be issues and disagreements.  Who cares.  You learn from them and move on.  The whole idea of relationships used to freak me out and I thought I would much rather be on my own.  I was an idiot.  An awesome relationships is so worth sticking out the bad stuff.  
You know how you are supposed to learn from other people’s mistakes?  Well, learn from mine.  Get yourself ready now now for a relationship so when it comes along you are prepared and don’t waste time growing up and panicking that you’ve “lost your independence” and all that other nonsense.  A good, healthy relationship rocks!  
My last piece of advice is this: no long engagement.  Spend a while getting to know each other, but once you have decided you want to get married, why wait?  Trust me on this.  But make sure they are the right one.  Don’t be concerned about social pressure and timelines and expectation and don’t push something great away cause it wasn’t when you planned it.  Do what is right for you, in it’s right time.  Now, go out there and find yourself someone  who makes you laugh and change for the better.  If you have already found this someone give ‘em a big ol’ kiss and let them know you wouldn’t trade them for the world.